Getting It ....... FINALLY

PICTURE I TOOK AT SUNSET GOD IS WITH US ALL THE TIME

    Today was super super tough....at first!!! I cant believe how tough it was because we were so busy how could we possibly have had time to think about our families and friends. The day started out super early!! Our whole room was up and moving by 5:30. We all got dressed and walked out to great the beautiful morning to eat breakfast. Still not hungry i ate barely anything next thing we did was walk to the main circle where there is a flag from every counrty represented this quarter and were escorted back to "ohana" circle where we had amazing worship and a traditional hawaiian welcome service. We then had some down time before lunch and that is when it started. I was questioning everything, why i had even come!!! I did not feel like i fit in at all, i missed everyone at home, i was stressing about what i needed to do school wise in order to catch up with college. I panicked!! I was focusing on EVERYTHING other than what i was supposed to be focusing on, this great experience that God put right in front of me. I was thinking about myself and not giving everything up to the Lord.

          After my mini break down with my dad. we went to our first DTS Comapassion lesson where we met the staff, it was really cool and the staff is absolutely the most amazing group of people i have ever met and the other students are great. Before we left the school leader gave this whole talk on how we need to give God all our insecurities and let him lead the way. She talked about how some of us have our plan in our head, we are going to go on outreach then go home, go to school, get our degree, and move on. She then reminded us that we were all called here by God and even though we have a plan she asked us all to stay open minded and not close our eyes to what God may have in store for us. This may be sticking to our own plans, or going on a few more missions trips then finishing school, and some may even become full on missionaries, but any way you want to look at it we all need to stay open to what God wants. It was amazing, I have gone to a christian school for 12 years and have gone to hundreds of church services and chapels and I have never paid as close attention as i did today! God had me tuned in, I EVEN LEFT MY CELL IN MY ROOM!!!! That is when i realized what i had been waiting for. I had been telling everyone i was coming here and when they asked why i would not have a response for them. I would stumble and not be able to have a clear answer, well i get it now! God wants to use me, he wants to bring me closer to him, and that makes me excited just to think about it. He is tired of me doing things on my time line and wants me to think more about him and his plan for me and less about me and my plan for me.  I think God takes what we want and incorporates it into our life plan most of the time, but i had gotten to the point where i was only thinking about what i wante. I WANT to work in hotels, I WANT to move to LA. This is the time in my life where i get to say GOD IS LEADING ME, and that is the most amazing thing i could get out of today!!! I want him to lead me, i want him to take me and show me where i am supposed to be in life. Everything i do will be for him!! He may lead me back to school right away or he might use me to keep helping young children at risk, either way i will rejoice in him and know that he is God!!!

                 I konw this is alot i just really felt the need to share!!! i am so amazed at how people from all over the world come together and share in his love and grace!! It is so great. I love all the people here and am starting to realize what i am doing. It is hard to hand your whole life plan over to God. It is hard to trust him and to lean on him 100 percent but if we dont, how will we know that we are doing what we are supposed to be doing! Life is amazing i know i will get homesick again but today was a good start on me getting more comfertable here. GOD IS SO GOOD and while I miss everyone Getting to spend time focusing on my Lord and Savior is more than i can ask for. I will try to do daily updates even if they are short!! THANK YOU FOR THE PRAYERS!!!! HE IS SOOO GOOD~~~~~